My name is Kai (like Okay not like Pie) .19. Cosplayer in the Toronto Area. Nerdfighter. Multi-Shipper. Gender: Fuck that noise Pronouns: Xe, Ze, She, He, so all Readers Reading
A/N The third part of my It Gets Better Series
A smiling young girl appeared on the screen, she waved at the camera “My name is Merril Portman and I am telling you that it DOES get better.”
The background abruptly changed to what looked like the common room of an older dorm, done in nice wood furnishings. Yellow and white accents were scattered around the room. Sitting in front of the camera were two people; Merril, the girl from earlier, and a brown eyed, brown haired boy who Merril was holding hands with.
The confident young girl from earlier had disappeared to be replaced with a quieter version of the girl “When I was born, I was born Merril Portman a healthy 8 pounds 7 ounce boy. As I grew older, I realized I was different from other boys, it didn’t feel right to do mostly boy-centered things. I wanted to wear dresses like the little girl who was my next door neighbour.” Her hand shook on her lap and Spencer reached over grabbing it with his other hand, she smiled at him gratefully.
“When I told my parents, it was an accident. I had kept it hidden, I somehow knew deep down that they wouldn’t approve. We were window shopping when we went into the city one Saturday, just walking up and down, and I was admiring a dress, without even thinking. I was so stupid. I told my mom I wouldn’t mind having that dress. The entire day was ruined after that, they wouldn’t let me wear anything that looked the slightest bit feminine after.” She laughs dryly thinking back.
“Now that I think about it, I even remember getting in trouble for not wearing pink during Colour Day at school.” She shook her head “The administration didn’t understand it and had no idea what to do, not to mention the students at school. The girls weren’t too bad; it was the boys that were the problem. They were always taunting me, never including me when I tried to fit in. I think the worst thing was when they made princess into an insult, it hurt hearing that word for a long time after that.”
“I was in freshman year when I finally decided that I was sick of hiding, I had been doing some research under the guise of a project for school, and had found out about the operations I could have. I told my parents I wanted one. That’s when they kicked me out.” She looked down “It was a hard week, before my Aunt and Uncle found me, they took me in and then the battle started. My parents wanted me back, if I was a boy. My guardians wanted me to be accepted for what I am. They finally compromised so that I got sent here, to Dalton.”
She looked apologetically at Spencer before continuing. “At the time I thought it was the worst thing that could happen to me, having to go to an all boy’s school and pretend for the next four years? I had no idea that when I would meet the Hanovers, they would accept me as soon as I walked in the door, they didn’t even think twice about it. They were the only people outside of my Aunt and Uncle who had ever accepted me.”
“Then it spread around campus, and rather than receiving hate, I was met with more acceptance. It was a completely new experience for me. Then about a year ago Justin, our prefect, suggested that I campaign to join Dobry the all-girls school. I didn’t want to at first, I was so afraid I would push my parents away more. Finally, I realized that this is what I wanted, so with the help of the Hanovers and some other students, I’ve applied, multiple times, we’re still waiting on the answer from the last letter” She smiled lightly
“And then a few months ago this idiot made a fool out of us both and asked me to prom.” She squeezed Spencer’s hand. “That’s when I knew that I had a place where I was completely accepted. That things really had gotten better for me.” She smiled at the camera and then buried her head into Spencer’s shoulder to hide her tears.
Spencer wrapped an arm around her shoulder and looked at the camera, speaking for the first time since they had started “Things really do get better, so please don’t leave before you get the chance to find your Hanovers, because they really will never be the same without you. You will be really important to them, one of the only things keeping them afloat at times. So hang in there.”
He reached his arm out and hit the button on the top of the camera causing the screen to black out.